Lost 118 Pounds
There I was, a nurse and mother of three young children; obligations, responsibilities,
a career, a family. But, at 253 lbs, I wanted to stay in the house, in
bed, hiding, and let my life pass me by.
A former competitive athlete, I was very self conscious about my weight.
My feet hurt and my clothes looked awful on me so now, rather than play
sports I avoided outdoor activities. It was miserable having to sit alone
and watch my kids swim, ski, play, go to the beach… and I just
I was obsessed with guilt about being fat, I shouldn’t have eaten
that, what will I eat next, when can I eat next, but I shouldn’t
eat, on and on. That thought process playing over and over in my head
Looking at family photos over the past 13 years you would have thought
I did not exist. It was too painful to see myself in photos; I had to
be the one with the camera in hand to avoid any shots of myself. My ongoing
feelings of despair were repeatedly interrupted by periods of determination
to get my life back. I committed to every diet imaginable losing 100 lbs,
70 lbs, 90 lbs, only to gain it back again. Finally, after another forced
diet plan failed, I decided that my last hope and chance to regain my
life was to have a gastric bypass. I wanted to live a full and happy life
with my children and at the rate I was going that was not going to happen.
Instead, I had been literally killing myself. As a healthcare professional
I knew enough to be able to research my options. I wanted to best chance
for success but I also knew that surgeons needed skill and I wanted the best.
From what I knew as an insider in the medical field, there was no question
in my mind that the only doctors that I could entrust with my children’s
Mom were Dr.’s Quebbemann and Braverman of The N.E.W. Program. Well,
all that “is now 8” years ago. Before I went in for surgery
the physicians at The N.E.W. Program explained that once the weight starts
to come off, I would need to become more active and embrace a healthy
lifestyle change and all I thought was “I can’t wait.”
Today I am down 120 lbs and I’m fit.
The past “several” years have been great! I have taken up horseback
riding with my kids, gone hiking in Yosemite and Sequoia, taught my kids
how to paddle a canoe, boogie board, swim and surf. Once again, I’m
a competitive athlete racing outrigger canoes. After winning the National
Title we recently placed second in the World competition, racing between
Molokai and Oahu across 42 miles of open sea. (see photos!) Instead of
sitting on the “sidelines” watching I am happy, active and
living every day of my life to the fullest.
Finally, I’m a healthy role model for my children. They brag to their
friends about my athletic achievements. I can also feel comfortable in
my jeans and proudly pose for a family photo. This would not have been
possible if I had remained stuck in the depressed, fat, really tortuous
lifestyle that I had. But, that is now in the past and I will never go
back there again. I am forever grateful to the skill and expertise of
the surgeons at The N.E.W. Program.